addict
I need to change my addictions.
Can't change being an addict. My brain's circuitry is welded irrevocably toward obsessiveness. There's a restlessness in my mind that needs to seize things and strangle the juice out of them until there's nothing left. I can't live easy.
Believe me, I've tried.
Yeah, yeah, Jim the bullying asshole...I wish. The thing that has caused the most damage to me in my life has been a suicidal lack of assertiveness when it counted. A killer instinct when I could have used one. Forget the temper tantrums for a second—in all the ways that count, I've been too considerate to others and way too hard on myself.
You better duck when I learn to use my addictions to my advantage.
